Counselor Check In (part 2)

Posted on Wed 5th Mar, 2014 @ 12:12pm by Lieutenant Zhara Rynn & Lieutenant JG Lys Greystone
Edited on on Wed 5th Mar, 2014 @ 12:18pm

1,020 words; about a 5 minute read

Mission: http://sb109.sim-station.net/index.php/sim/missions/id/6

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Lys nodded her dark head, "For a hot tea I prefer a sage blend with blackberry in it" and closed her eyes and breathed a few deep slow breaths. She continued to speak quietly her voice was hardly strained but one could tell as she spoke that it was as if she had shut herself off from her feelings and tried to hide from them "I had rather hoped that since I had been here in this new location for a while that those feelings would have simply vanished." Lys opened her dark eyes with a sigh "I see that since I was busy with duties that I simply shoved them in a place where they were temporarily held, a place where they simply waited to exposed once more."

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"Yes, that does happen," Zhara said as she replicated the tea for Lys. "Especially when one does not wish to deal with the emotions." She set the tea in front of the science officer and then made herself a cup of honey vanilla chamomile.

Zhara sat down next to Sophia again and took a sip of her tea. "Tell me abut your loss."

Lys looked at her hands that were in her lap for long minutes almost to the point that the Counselor would have thought that she would not answer. Finally the dark haired woman spoke, it seemed as if she were back to wherever that moment of time and space was and then she was there in the room with the Counselor and the dog. "I can still see the blood on my hands, Orrin's blood. They brought him in, goodness he screamed and screamed from the pain. They tried every thing they could to calm him. Nothing worked. They told me afterwards that they had no idea why nothing worked. I held his hand the whole time, I watched as they tried to stop the flow of blood, to repair his injury. But nothing worked and that wasn't the worst of it, it was his never ending wail." She closed her eyes, her forehead puckered and she leaned forward as if in pain, she covered her ears for a view seconds and then sat back up as she continued. "I can still hear him, screaming. Though its gotten better and I don't hear it as often. All I ever wanted at the time was for him to shut his mouth." The woman looked up and met the Counselor's eyes, "That will never stop will it? I will always hear that to some degree, in the darkness of night perhaps or some random moment when I remember his smile. In my dreams when I feel guilty for screaming back at him."

"No, it will never completely go away," Zhara said, equally quietly. "It will fade, become less frequent, more an echo, but it will not completely disappear."

Lys continued in her quiet voice "It used to be worse, its is why I was sent here, to this base to get away from it. My Counselor aboard the Luxembourg, thought a change of view would do me good." Lys flashed a genuine grin, it came easy as if she were used to doing it but hadn't for a while.. It disappeared again as she continued to speak. "I used to see him every where on the Luxembourg, hear him every where I turned. Here though I don't hear him. Because he's never been here." She picked up her tea and took a sip, it was almost perfect and she smiled slightly as she peered into its depths not sure what else to say.

"Do you sleep with music?" Zhara asked. "The right music can help lessen the sound of his cries. It can help them slip into dream. As long as you don't use it to avoid what happened, but to provide a cathartic experience, it will be an aid to your healing." The music grew louder for a moment, then softened again. "If you don't like music, you can try the sounds of a forest, or a stream." She watched Lys for a moment. "Although you may be beyond the need for such aids now."

"Oh no. But neither had I thought of music, but a nice trickling stream could be relaxing." Lys continued to look into her tea as if it held the answers to all her problems. She bit at her lower lip for a moment and shoved a thought far away. Her other loss was one she didn't really want to discuss and so chose not to. There was nothing any one could do about it or relate to it unless they had gone through the same thing. She sighed softly, "It feels like it was yesterday but its been almost a year and a half now." Those words sparked something in Lys, she hadn't realized that time had moved by so fast while she had been so lost in her own grief cycle and so busy with the Gardens. She grinned again and met the other woman's eyes for a moment and then looked away as her smile slid off her face. She was unsure what to think of the other woman, not that it mattered. They came from two different worlds and more then likely unless she was required too, Lys would never come back for a visit. "Your dog would enjoy the Garden, we have a section just for pets to meander around."

"Yes, I plan on taking Sophia to see the Gardens very soon," Zhara said. "What happened a year and a half ago?"

"Besides losing my husband. I... We... um..." Lys shook her head and set her tea down. "I don't think want to talk about it. May I go now?"

"If it's been a year and a half and you still can't talk about it," Zhara said, her tone firm but kind, "Then you and I need to talk because you are not dealing with your grief and that is not healthy."

(To be continued...)

Lieutenant JG Lys Greystone
Chief Science Officer

Lieutenant Zhara Rynn
Chief Counselor

 

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