Personal Log - I've Seen Worse

Posted on Wed 4th Apr, 2018 @ 10:04pm by Lieutenant Commander Lanis Dhuro MD

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I have seen worse than the wounded we took in today from the USS Samurai, but that was mainly with regard to the body count I personally had to deal with. Today, I just worked on the triaged patients who were prepped and ready for surgery. Chlamydia was the one who organized all of the dead needing to be placed in the morgue. Most people do not find that an easy task. For Chlamydia? I am never certain how she finds it, save to say that I believe whatever she does feel about death at any given time is honest.

She always behaves so philosophically about death, which is a rarity among the people I've known. Mention the possibility of an "interesting" cadaver to her, and her eyes light up. I don't think, however, that Chlamydia is quite as delighted by most death as some might think. I don't know what she saw in the crystal ball the night of her seance party, but I haven't forgotten the tears in her eyes or the heartbroken look on her face before her grief vanished, leaving her as mystified by her tears, apparently, as everyone else was. That is a door I think best left closed for the time being.

I'm just glad that no one died under my hands today--but really, that is only because the most critically wounded from the Samurai died before they could reach Vanguard. So my luck or skill in that regard, if you can call it that, is illusory.

I remember vividly times when my patients have died. Sometimes I've felt defeated, sometimes relieved, sometimes angry to punch a hole in a wall. The only time I remember feeling heartbroken, like Chlamydia, was when they brought Irel in after a raid, and nothing I did could keep her from slipping away to the Celestial Temple, like dust through my fingers. I was a mess for a while after that.

It's been a long day. After the surgeries came rounds and talking to people who had all lost many friends to that attack. There were the inevitable chart notes, lengthy discussions with various staff and Operations folks as to where to house all these patients, meeting and talking to the patients who were conscious. Many of them are still in shock. They'll keep Dr. Graves and his staff quite busy, I have no doubt.

I think I'll see if Chlamydia's in the mood for company or not. Just to check in.

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